Feeling both useless and helpless now ,
tio bully , also my fault , cannot even fight back .
Through out my 13 years of life , I have nvr done anything succesful or even do anything to help myself .
Everytime get bullied , I would not fight back , no , COULD not fight back .
I wouldn't dare to offend ppl but if I dun help myself , who would ?
I can't even protect my sister and my loved friends in the current state I'm in .
I cannot give myself protection , much more to say defend and help my friends and sister .
I really wish I could upgrade myself .
At least to know how to protect myself , sister and loved friends .
Many would say me a humji after reading my post .
But in fact ,
I really am one .
I wish , I could learn how to fight , in this way , at least I can protect my sister , and my loved friends .
I really wish I could get rid of my fear , so my sister would at least have a brother to reply on .
And my friends would have a friend to help them .
I've let myself down .
All because ,
I COULD NOT FIGHT BACK .